In the process of my discernment during this quiet February night, a few revelations have unfolded to me…
It shakes me to think about these things, and to this minute, I don’t know what to make of it yet.
I have been noticing images of The Holy Mother almost everywhere I go – at the church, in adoration, and even when I read the Bible; almost always, I open to the page where the image of The Lady of Guadalupe’s lies. This fact is already strange to me, as this image is placed in a seemingly unrelated part of the Bible. I found this image in the Gospel of Matthew, where in this page, he doesn’t even mention Mother Mary…
Repeatedly, The Holy Mother’s image would come into my mind, most especially the image above: The Lady of Guadalupe.
I didn’t think much of this before, yet I knew, perhaps Mama Mary wanted to tell me something?
Months had passed since my resolution to grow deeper in my faith with the Lord, but tonight, something really urged me to find out more about why I always had Mama Mary in my mind.
Not too long ago, I was discerning for a certain decision for a new role I was asked to do at church. I opened the bible, and I read the story of Tobit and Sara. Tobit became blind, and Sara was condemned to death after her multiple husbands died before one of them had a chance to consummate their marriage. Tobit and Sara both pleaded for God’s help, deep in their misery and suffering… They lifted everything to the Lord and the Lord answered their prayers.
Strangely enough, these were the excerpts from the Bible that really stood out to me. I read these chapters some days ago.
January 31, 2017.
Alleluia! I am pleased that the Lord has heard my voice in supplication, that he has not been deaf to me, the day I called on him.
Gracious and righteous is the Lord, full of compassion is our God. The Lord protects the simple: He saved me when I was humbled. … He has freed my soul from death, my eyes from weeping, my feet from stumbling.
–Psalm 116: 1-2, 5-6, 8
February 11, 2017.
Do not forsake me in the day of my affliction, when I am helpless against arrogant enemies: I will praise your name continually and sing to you my thanksgiving.
And my prayer was heard, you saved me from destruction and delivered me from an evil plight.
–Sirach 51: 10-11
All of these verses give me great comfort and assurance that things are really going to be okay: because God willed it to be so. These times right now are definitely one of my most difficult times of my life that I feel no one will be able to understand… yet, here it is, these comforting words from God presented themselves to me in such an amazing manner – days apart, but looking back at it now, I clearly see what He is really trying to say to me.
Today is February 13, 2017.
February 11 and February 13 are the days the Lady of Lourdes made an apparition in Lourdes, France in 1858. The Lady of Lourdes and The Lady of Guadalupe are essentially the same person: and she is none other than The Holy Mother Mary.
This curiosity spurred an interest within me to know more about the Lady of Guadalupe, so I embarked on a journey literally hours ago to read more about Her beautiful story.
Our Lady of Guadalupe appeared to a humble peasant and farmer, Juan Diego in the 1530s and instructed the old man to tell the bishop to build a temple where she had appeared in Tepeyac Hill, Mexico. Juan Diego obliged, and the rest is historyTo this day, the Tepeyac Hill chapels and basilicas that were built to honour the Lady of Guadalupe stand strong, almost as a testimony to the world of the countless miracles this place had been a witness to.
It is said that the Lady wanted to build the exact temple that stands today as a way for Her to look over Mexico and hear the prayers and petitions of the people. It is also said that her apparition was a response to a pagan Aztec Princess’ cry for help years before, in the 1510s, to save her people from suffering and turmoil.
The story is quite touching to me as it relates to me on a very personal level. These hardships that I’m going through right now will pass.
Today is the day I also realized that the Lord isn’t the only person I can pray to – I can build a personal relationship with the Holy Mother as well. In the same way she listened to the cry of the Aztec princess thousands of years ago, and to this day where She continues to listen to Her people…
As her famous words go… She whispered to Juan Diego that night when he was filled with doubt and uncertainty, and the moment he failed to do in the right time what the Mother has asked him to do…
April, is Mary not your Mother? Are you not under her protection?
Fear not, young one…
Courage, my daughter! Your faith has made you well.